Always a memory..

She walks alone on a broken path
That leads to a lonely aftermath
Behind the illusion she tries to hide
Without the freedom to decide

She sits around and wastes her day
On words she'll never get to say
To play the treacherous game
And save a life sealed with pain

Maybe there is another life
With words that won't cut like a knife
And no more image to defend
When the whole world comes to an end

R.I.P

Words logic meaning.

I know for sure. If nothing significant is going to occur. This story is going to have its ending soon. You might get a chance to experience it, you might not. A final work of art to the end of a beginning. Evolution is no longer a friend. Where it all started might just be where its all going to end. A result of a mess left alone..

It has been said, time heals all wounds.
I do not agree. The wounds remain.
In time, the mind protecting its sanity covers them with scar tissues and the pain lessens
but it is never gone.

Bored bored bored

Heh its study week and im bored! Maybe i should join the rest of the world on face book.. Anw ive been takin stupid quizes.. =/
Results for what kinda rose i am.
You are a Blue Rose
You represent the unattainable and fantasies
Your vibe: larger than life and intoxicating
Falling in love with you is: like seeing a whole new world

Ok this is quite freaky though. This is all frm my name. Just typed it in and tata.

You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations.
You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are very intuitive and wise.
You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination.
You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy.
You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are fair, honest, and logical.
You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem.
You are great at giving other people advice.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly.
You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful.
You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted.
You value your time alone.
You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are very charming... dangerously so. (Yeah i wish =/)
You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. (0.o more like the other way round)
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. (Ohh.. YES I DO! )
Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
You are friendly, charming, and warm.
You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat.
Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible.
But for the important things, you pull it together.
Cool rite?? Most of the stuff quite true leh =P

WTF my ideal relationship is Marriage =/

Heh im a Passionate Kisser.

Oh look! i took a quiz if im goin to heaven or hell... Results: You're so saintly you're practically an angel, and there's no other place for you than heaven =DD hahah

Looky my jap name is..... Kin Shigenoi
My Sexy Brazilian Name is.... Joelma Peixe
My French Name is... Forest Bordes
My Outrageous Name Is.... Ceasar Titts
Ok yeah i need to get a life.. =/ Anw go check out this webby! When yr really bored of cause =/ http://www.blogthings.com

Heh joke of the year!

JEWS! =D Heh i was on the way to just beer with jo and gerard on friday. So we were in the bus when some lady asked me if i was cantonese, then i was like no. i thought she was asking for directions or smthing.. Then she started asking me if i went to church or not. bla bla bla.. u know the standerd kinda of thing when someone tries to convert you. Then she asked jo what religion she was. So jo was like yeah im Catholic. Then she said don't follow the Roman Catholics cause they are not going to heaven. So jo was like hey the last i checked the pope was Roman Catholic. Then she was like yeah the pope aint goin to heaven. Haha damn funny. So I was like so what church do u go to? She said ohh i dont go to church then showed us the Jew star. Hahaha Jo an i were ahh.. that explains it. After that i was just talking rubbish to her. Lucifer bless you too! =D

10 things I wana do before I enter NS.

1.Get a Girlfriend.
2.Get shitfaced at least 5 more times.
3.Wear tight pants and a Leather jacket without a shirt and go in a Gay club
4.Go overseas with a bunch of friends. (and hopefully get wasted there =D)
5.Spend 24 hours just watching movies (anyone wana join me?)
6.Play catchin with a policeman and not get caught. =)
7.Learn to drive.
8.Find 2 lesbian friends (I’ve got enough gay ones =P)
9.Appear on TV somehow.. (any ideas anyone?)
10.Have a hair shaving ceremony!

Unrelated topic.
SOMEBODY should stop giving my number to every person who askes for it! some of them are really irritating!! RAWR!

I’ve been thinking a lot about my past lately. The things I’m proud off have all been learned from the people I’m trying to reject. I just cannot be that person who follows just by faith anymore. The gift has been taken away from me in exchange for knowledge. And now I know more then I learned in the past 16 years of my life. I finally know why ignorance is bliss now. My mind tells me I need to know everything about God while my heart tells me I was not meant to know that much. Now with that little I know I really don’t see what anyone Truly sees in him. Which is most likely only 10% of his worshipers?

I’ve done a lot of wrong in my past. Some of which still haunts me every night. There is this one person I really want to set things right with but I just don’t know what to do. She tried to be there for me after my last break up but I just kept pushing her away. I know I’ve hurt her a lot and how we stopped talking did not end very well. I’ve been thinking of calling her up for the past week but I’m really scared of how she would react to it. What if trying to make things up to her just makes everything worse. Haiz why does life suck so much?

I saw something on a friend’s msn nick today. It says “Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down”. Yeah.. I guess that’s what I’ve been doing my whole life. And that was probably the main reason I was so in love with my ex. She was the one person who actually cared enough to break down my walls and looked at my ugly side and say that it’s alright. To accept me for whomever I was on the inside and not what I was. How many of you would be able to look under the jester's mask and accept his tears? Or will you reject him like the rest.

Play the role of a martyr in classic style
In hand with a twisted smile
To bleed the words of this rites
An epitaph to a broken dream
To set free this silent scream

In the playground of broken hearts
Penned an entry in a diary
Yet another emotional suicide
Overdosed on sentimental and pride

So go now and hide with laughter
Thy tears and thy sorrow
And laugh for the pain that is breaking my heart
For this is the life of a jester
And never can his tears be seen

I wonder if anyone bothers to look between my word play