Happy Birthday to me! =)

46 hours without sleep. Im dead tired but somehow i cant fall asleep. This year i got thrown into the pool and a pond, got smashed with a cake twice. one kinda bounced off my face though.=P damn but the pond was damn gross. Had a bbq on sat with mua MDIS friends.. not as many peeps turned out as i expected but it was still fun =) I think im gettin a fever now. =/

I remember a year ago
A wish I made for this day
And how I prayed it would come true

I look back at the days before
Remembering that little promise you made
And how it betrayed me

To live and let die
To give hope and take life
Is that what you are here for?

This day where smiles are expected
Where songs of bliss are sang
And tears of joys are shed
I hear only the tune of sorrow and despair
Laying in a pit where love has never been
Staring into the empty sky

A year has passed and here I am again
Making that same very wish
Praying so hard it wouldn’t betray me again

Oww!

Ok i just did the smartest thing ever.. I was cooking noodles then for some stupid reason i tried to grab the pot. =/ Now all 5 fingers are burnt =( Hmm kinda looks like chicken. oh well.. =/ arh it hurts when i type.

Dante's Inferno

Holy shit! they made Dante's Inferno into a freaking game!
Damn.. got to be damn cool!

Abandon hope all ye who enter here!

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head.
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life..

MLTR!

Michael Learns To Rock makes me reminisce about so many times. Haiz.. Too many things just happened to me in that short period of time. I don't know i guess i just blame myself for that happening to her but i didnt even know what she was doing. I wouldnt want that if i knew what was going to happen to her. haiz. then there is my stupid course in ngee ann. so fustrating. and of cause the issue with my ex. arh.

There are times when I believe in you
these moments when I feel close to you
there are times I think that I am yours
though many times I feel unsure
...
..
.
Nothing to lose
your love to win
hoping so bad that you'll let me in.

To gain the world but to loose the one that meant the world to you. Whats more i can't really blame anyone but myself.. I guess i was just scared of myself at that point of time. There are just some stuff no one would really understand about me. Like would you understand how it feels to fear your mind? Too much self-awareness is bad ok! Theres no one im really fighting but myself. Everytime i push my limit even futhur it feels like i'm dying inside. I really miss talking to you. Oh well.. i guess there are some things you really can't control. Maybe in time things would work out.. thats all i can hope for now.. and just wait.. hopefully she saw that message.

Bahh now's not the time to emo up! Got a stupid EALD paper tmr! and i havent really studied anything. Somehow EALD doesnt seem like an important exam. Look its 1.30am and i haven even started making proper notes. Anw my Bday's comming! 28sep! *hint hint* I'm thinking of having a mac party =P. But thats too lame.. =/ mm maybe bbq at my place. and get wasted! =D Study!! hope the paper is damn easy. i really dont understand what to study=/ its like common sense but its more complicated then that. Arh..