Gods of the World

It's been a long hot road I've been upon
Through the desert of your soul
I've looked high and low for water
But it's not there

All the promises of springtime
Turned to lies, so cold
But I'm stronger than you know
And I've come to let you go

I've been a prisoner just locked away
Inside your velvet jail
But it don't matter at all
Some things can grow without the light

Theres no jokes from the jester
Not a laugh from the clown
Now think about it one more time
What have you done when the god is gone

Here take my hand
Let me show you the music of night
We'll move to the rhythm of the shadows
And dance to the beat of the darkness

We are the kings and queens of the night
Masters of the moon
The angels shuns us
As the shadows embrace us

Away from Heaven and Hell
Thieves of your dreams
We’ll live the life of a sinner and saint
Gods of the world

Storm

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be alright
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall

I will get lost into your eyes
And know everything will be alright

Take your pain and swallow it down
Drown your sorrows in a pool of pity now
You've got the confidence, you've got the smile
Fool everybody even yourself for awhile..

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing..

I’m finding my way back to sanity, again.
Though I really don’t know what I’m going to do when I get there.
I’m looking pass the shadows in my mind.
Into the truth and I’m trying to identify,
The voices in my head,
Which one’s mine?
But I want nothing more then to speak with you tonight..

The Earth Is Another Form Of Hell And Men Are Its Demons.

It is only when the will to live is lost; you realize that there is no end to your limits. For now there is no challenge in anything, neither is there a reason to prove anything to anyone. You see no superior power watching over even if it existed, for you know that the history of the world is the history of the triumph of the heartless over the mindless. Be it religion, faith, or the simple word belief no longer exists. You know you are in control of everything but there is no meaning to anything.

The world then starts to take on a totally different perspective and suddenly everything seems to fascinate you. Even the slightest thing such as a flicker of a candle makes you ponder about its purpose, its being. From it you try to derive a reason for yourself. But there is no longer an answer to anything. Everything you do now has a purpose behind it and everything is a cycle of prolonging your existence. You work to eat and sleep and eat and sleep so you can work.

You try to find joy in what others would consider but you feel nothing. For joy is just an illusion. And when you create an illusion, it becomes reality. But with the knowledge of this fact you no longer have the ability to do so. Your mind rejects your emotions for it is nothing but a weakness. Even though you know how or what you should feel, everything is just numbness. You then start to wonder if you really exist or if your just an illusion. But there is no way of finding out neither is there an answer to that.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. But do you really want to be stronger. For with strength comes a lack of emotion which is what makes you real. Is the choice really yours? To die or become that. Everything makes perfect sense to you now. You know everything, have seen everything and can do anything. But why? What for? Finally the one question you fear so much has to be answered..

Am I safe from myself?

Yes he did it again..

Any dolt with half a brain
Can see that humankind has gone insane
Listen close to everybody’s heart
And hear that breaking sound
Hopes and dreams are shattering apart
And crashing to the ground
I cannot believe my eyes
How the world’s filled with filth and lies
but it’s plain to see evil inside of me
is on the rise.
-Dr horrible

I really dont know where i find them.. Is my life a fucking sick joke to you.

Firsts

You know what makes life so new? so exciting? Firsts! Remember the first time you stayed out all night? Or the first time you got into a fight? This list can go on and on.. Your first time betting, your first alcholic drink, first time u sneaked into a club, the first fire you set, your first love. But soon you realise that there isnt anything left thats new to you. You cant find anything that would provide you with that adrenaline rush! That moment of high.. You dont feel any pain, no worries, nothing.. just pure high..

I can't seem to find out what I feel
Burned out dreams of others which I can steal
Take or leave this way I seem to you, it eats right through you
Ripped up parts of things I should do, I'll run around and tell you screaming

Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try
I've been leaving thoughts below
Still I feel I should know

Still don't see much of me giving in
Much too strong to live outside of these sins
Feeling like I'm taken lightly, think you see right through me
Words of those who still despise me, think it's eating me you're dreaming

Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try
I've been leaving thoughts below
Still I feel I should know

When I seem to believe all that I've done wrong
You can take all that's right I will still move on
Taken all I can give it seems that I don't belong
Push me further from this go on

Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try
I've been leaving thoughts below
Still I feel I should know