Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher but I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man

Chaos

I don't know what to think anymore. All my life i have been searching for the truth, something real. But now... I've gotten more then i can handle.

I've tore everything, including myself apart to see how it ticks and i can't put any of it back together. The only thing i have learned about the truth is that the truth is chaos and you can never grasp chaos. You may understand it, but you can never grasp it. And if somehow you can comprehend it, you go nuts. Cause this earthly beliefs don't apply to you anymore.

From the day you were born, we were brought up in a world where society was created. Society based on patterns and if you keep undoing these patterns you will only find chaos waiting. And even if i keep searching, I'm never going to find it, cause i wont be content that it's it.

Ocean Deep

Love , can't you see I'm alone
Can't you give this fool a chance
A little love is all I ask
A little kindness in the night
Please don't leave me behind
No , don't tell me love is blind
A little love is all I ask
And that is all
Oh love , I've been searchin' so long
I've been searchin' high and low
And little love is all I ask
A little sadness when you go
Maybe you'll need a friend
Only please don't let's pretend
A little love is all I ask
And that is all
I wanna spread my wings
But I just can't fly
As a string of pearls
The pretty girls go sailin' by
Ocean deep
I'm so afraid to show my feelings
I have sailed a million ceilings
Solitary room

Ocean deep
Will I ever find a lover
Maybe she has found another
And as I cry myself to sleep
I know this love of mine I'll keep
Ocean deep
Now , can't you hear when I call
Can't you hear the word I say
A little love is all I ask
A little feelin' when we touch
Why am I still alone
I've got a heart without a home
A little love is all I ask
And that is all

-CLIFF RICHARD

Dream

Whisper in the yard and turn the trees all into toys
Lay there on the ground, and turn the dirt into your joy
From what I see and what I know, it's all been boring lately
So I suggest we trade a question mark in for a maybe
Time your riddles right, and make a point that has no sense
Make sure that you're smiling, and the money's been well spent
Innocence and ignorance, it all goes hand in hand
I'm not sure that I'm right, but I hope you'll understand
I hope that you're still searching for the start that has no end
And all the plastic people have now become your friends
Before you start to drift and your soul begins to scream
I just wanted to tell you that you're listening to a dream

-Shinedown

War of life

A war raged on for years to come
And a battle which no side would be done
Many a life out lived its time
But few knew not to fight

Yes
Another little solider has left the field
Put down her gun and walked away
For she knew the war was always here to stay

Now they spite her will to fight
And claimed their loyalty to each side
Blinded by the war so long
And their self-righteous proselytism so strong

She always knew her wounds will go away
But the shells will always fall her way
So walked away she did so strong
Ignoring the allegation that came her way

I have always lived with the awareness of the impossibility of living. And what has made existence endurable to me is my curiosity as to how I would get from one minute, one day, one year to the next.