Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I'd still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

I can never seem to run fast enough. No matter how fast or far i try to run. My past is always one step ahead of me draining whatever is left of this miserable existence one drop at a time. Sometimes i just feel like giving up and embracing it. Sometimes i wonder why i even try.

Time after time I lose again
Night after night I wake up shaking
Cause my world is breaking
I'm fool enough to fall again
Night after night I wake up crying
Cause I feel like dying

I hate people who blame the Devil for their own shortcomings and those who thank God when things go right.

Its better to write for yourself and have no public than to write for the public and have no self.