It was a grey day, with lots of clouds.

Some things in life that happen.
I'll never understand.
Things lately have been tough.
I think you probably gathered.
I don't know why.
I don't know the reasons.
For people behaving in such a way.
I'm slowly slipping into oblivion.
Don't let my mask fool you.
I really cant help it.
As much as i hate it.
That smile has to be there all the time.
Who would like me if it wasn't.
I'm not looking for freedom from the storm.
Just need some peace amid it.
A little would do.
Just to feel a little better.
Sometimes i feel like I'm slowly fading.
Like a part of me is missing.
But how do you loose.
A part you never knew.
My heart feels so broken.
Dreams so shattered.
Emotions running wild.
But hurt is all i can feel.
Let me just drift away on still waters.
I want to be alone
But i don't want to feel alone.
Mysterious and Beautiful
Or just plain Stupidity.
I want to be simple.
Can i be simple?

I saw this somewhere and thought it was cute..
Kinda true though. :)

You eat, you’re fat.
You don’t eat, you’re a freak.
You drink, you’re an alcoholic.
You don’t drink, you’re a pussy.
You read, you’re a nerd.
You don’t read, you’re stupid.
You tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker.
You don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking.
You let someone in, you’re easy.
You don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight.
You smoke, you think you’re cool.
You don’t smoke, you’re a loser.
You’ve had sex, you’re a slut.
You haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch.
You wear make up, you’re a slag.
You don’t wear make up, you’re ugly.
You can’t please anyone, never ever.

I believe in the Lord but he don't show up anymore

If a man can't lie, how can he speak?
If the sun don't rise, would the moon be out of reach?
If you can't trust the wind, who can you trust?
If you can't love sin, who can you love?
If I begin will you let me finish up?
If I fell down would you pick me up?
If I don't drink from a silver cup, like you,
Would you say so long, farewell, and good luck?
So go on and tear it up
Black and cold with the dust
'Cause I believe in the Lord
But he don't show up anymore

In the deepest streets
In the coldest thoughts
I am a reckless survivor
Dreaming in poetry
As a small pebble
Tucked away
Under the entire
Weight
Of the universe.

What ever happened to romance?

What ever happened to romance?
What ever happened
to the corny love letters,
to the long quiet strolls,
to the nights staring at the stars and the moon,
to simply enjoying the presence of the other.
What ever happened to it all?

Is there anyone out there thats gonna see me for who i am and not what i am?

The Question is not how do we fill that void. The Question is: how do we live with the longing?

I'm putting all my things in boxes
I'm gonna throw it all away
I think I've got a good idea but
Who am I to say

I'm burning all the things you gave me
Erasing all my memories
I thought you were the one to save me
I was so naive

I'm gonna run to the horizon
I'm gonna lay on the ground
Feel the rain that's coming down
I'm about to lose control
So, I'm gonna let it all go

I think it’s time I started over
I think I'll sail away from here
I'm gonna make a great escape
Now watch me disappear

My Insanity

Mindless tyranny, forgotten victims
The helpless minds of all
Clutch yourself as you fall
Children slaughtered in vain
Raping the maids, in which they serve
Satan watches all of us
Smiles as some do his bidding
Watch as flowers decay
On the cryptic life that died
And the games still go on
With a warning to the bishop from the pawn
Never thinking that the wind could ever fail
No one sees an angel till it smashes to the ground
The wisdom of the wizards
Is only a nurtured lie
Black knights of Hell's domain
Walk upon the dead
Satan sits upon
The blood of which he feeds
Try to escape the grasp of his hand
And your life will no longer exist
Hear our cry and save us from
The Hell in which we live
No one gets to heaven till they've lived awhile in hell
And even then it's rare
That you'll be going there
Now we understand
The wisdom of the years
And why the wishes in the well have all gone dry
Like a tear in the ocean
Dust in the wind
A stone in the water
Just another face without a name
Fall forever and never look behind

Life

Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes.
Lessons learned and gradually surfacing, letting go, striping
naked to scream. I am not perfect nor do I strive to be. I am
alive in this world of face first falls and public breakdowns. I
am a retarded disfigured clown dying to be heard for the simple
art of letting this heavy wall finally fall. I am an equal being
of no race or colour, a hallucination if you will. Sneaking into
the lives of strangers and letting them fall apart to a new
rhythm just to feel better.