I don't know what to think anymore. All my life i have been searching for the truth, something real. But now... I've gotten more then i can handle.
I've tore everything, including myself apart to see how it ticks and i can't put any of it back together. The only thing i have learned about the truth is that the truth is chaos and you can never grasp chaos. You may understand it, but you can never grasp it. And if somehow you can comprehend it, you go nuts. Cause this earthly beliefs don't apply to you anymore.
From the day you were born, we were brought up in a world where society was created. Society based on patterns and if you keep undoing these patterns you will only find chaos waiting. And even if i keep searching, I'm never going to find it, cause i wont be content that it's it.
