I spent most of my life loving those who leave me and leaving those who love me.
I'm such a mess.
It’s that time of the year again. I always wondered why bad stuff always happens during this period of time. I just don’t want to be alone again. It really sucks. The loneliness. The empty pit. Just falling and falling endlessly with no start or send. When I close my eyes I just see myself in a pitch black environment and no matter how far I reach out or run there is still nothing. Maybe that’s why I believe in nothingness. Cause that’s all that I am. That’s the only thing I know.
Honestly the only thing that keeps me going is the hope that someday I will find someone to fill that void. But the sad fact is every day I believe in that a little less and a little less and a little less and that sucks.
Oh well..
Happy Birthday to me.
