A friend kinda asked me how i could be so happy when all my post are so depressing. See, i figured this out not too long back. Well life is never happy and there are ups and downs everywhere. Well there are times you just cry and be depressed but thats that. You just got to move on and get on with life. Im not saying its bad to feel sad or such infact its good to let it out but you just cant let it affect your daily life or worst still the people around you. Just beat yourself up and smile! =)
So I’ve been thinking. What does loneliness really mean? Cause you can be among people all the time and still feel lonely. Well being lonely is having a lot to say but no one to tell it too. And yeah I guess that’s just me. I lack the ability to tell anyone anything. Never being able to trust anyone with my secrets. The consequences of which are just too great if some of it got out. You can’t really blame me with gossip running society these days. I guess no one really bothers to take the time to gain my trust or care in that matter.
Anyways it’s been a year and the deal I made with myself has finally come due. A year without relationships. Well it hasn’t been as hard as I expected. Except for the times you spend alone and just realize you have no one to call. Either then that yeah it hasn’t been that bad. Bah who am I kidding being single sucks.
Well this sucks. The people I’m attracting are totally not my type. Well I dun really go for younger girls so yeah. You know girls this days are so daring this days. Used to remember the days where they would never tell you they liked you until u told them so. Now a days they say it like it doesn’t mean anything anymore. Ahh this just reminds me of my secondary school days where it was all about games and girls. Damn I really miss those days. Well it’s not like I haven’t fancied anyone but well I never really believed in the league system until I met her. Hmm would you tell someone u like them even though they were way out of your league? And it’s been so damn long since I’ve been in a relationship. I kinda feel weird about it. And I dun really wana play the game I kinda decided it was stupid after 4 previous relationships. I want an honest simple relationship. I guess its kinda stupid to want that these days but oh well.
